<(><)>'s Journal...

may saket...i think...

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 06:46:03 GMT

not feeling so good...again...=/

Reform?

Thu, 17 Mar 2005 06:49:32 GMT

im doing so many things lately...started to work out and get into shape...trying to at least run a mile a week...and specifically work out my abs (in a hope to have it how it was 3 yrs ago)...been volunteering a lot lately too...usually at First Five in Berylwood Elementary where me and Kev help out a coach teach lil 5 or 6 yr old kids play soccer...hehe they're so cute...they'll run around, trip, cry, then the next moment, are happy again...idk...i guess they remind me of how i was when i was little...plus how i usually get along with my lil cousins back in the philippines...anyways, i have volunteer again tomorrow with the guys at the Sumaritan Center to feed the homeless...i try not to think of how much less time i have for studying and getting ready for the ap exams...i have a test tomorrow...2 in fact which i havent studied for but im only concerned in one...calculus >_O...i have a lot of memorization to do tonight XD...i think ill actually do alright for the history and english ap exams...just really worried bout calculus...ive forgotten the benefits of being single...but i guess its cause i try not to do anything (flirting and such) in fear of getting into a relationship and having it not work out...but eh...its actually alright now...i just do w/e...living my life according to the flow of things...so ill just let w/e happen, happen and just hope for the best...well i must get ready for the upcoming test tomorrow...Kev is prolly gonna try to break our 2 times in a row running time for the mile of 6 minutes and 48 seconds...which means we're prolly gonna push ourselves even more...but hey...that feeling of pain while working out or running...it feels great =_)

~_~

Mon, 14 Mar 2005 05:26:43 GMT

heh...officially by tonight, im gonna start trying for my classes and try to get good grades as best as i can...i know ive always been saying this and prolly my word isnt as good anymore...well for myself anyways...but yeah...i have work on the weekends...so i have less time to study...my goal is to actually do my hw right away once i come home afterschool and study for the classes i need to do better in...get started in studying fot the AP exams and also for the SATs...so many impossible goals for me to do...but they're just impossible if i dont try and do em...so im gonna go out there and make the impossible possible ^_^

Funeral & other things in my mind...

Sat, 12 Mar 2005 06:55:18 GMT

went to my stepdad's funeral today...it was ok...then we went to a vietnamese restaurant afterwards...it was great...now i have a lot of things in my mind...particularly how my really really old friends (ppl ive known since elementary) has changed so much...i mean ive changed too but the way they are now...i dont understand it...they're friends with ppl i got to know and sorta became friends with last year...but i didnt like it one bit when i think back on it cause they didnt feel like real friends...eh idk...i hope i can open up his eyes at least or get to hang out with him sometime...we've drifted apart for too long now...kinda like how my old [CoA] group has drifted apart this year...now ppl call my group Asian Invasion...but i dont like it...i think its gay...i still think of it as [CoA]...with me and the original Asians...not the new ones that came in this school year...cause everything changed once they did come in...or rather when a girl came into the group...[shrugs]...life is life...we cant always have wat we want in life...we cant turn back time and preserve or try to revive the good old times...i know its better to just move on...but i think it would be better to at least try to do something bout it...and i guess thats wat im gonna do now...and see where i end up...

Back Here

Thu, 10 Mar 2005 06:17:50 GMT

heh...i think my vacation from livejournal needs to end...so starting today, im back...i guess...or gonna at least try to keep things updated and put new entries as things happen or w/e...so yeah...hi ^_^

=)

Wed, 06 Oct 2004 00:26:49 GMT

idk...im just so happy nowadays ^_^

>_< BAH!

Sun, 30 May 2004 18:08:53 GMT

there...in honor of Diane, i updated on my own...she's so nice and sweet isnt she? O_O

a day in bethany's house... w00t!

Thu, 27 May 2004 01:10:22 GMT

hey guys. i'm at bethany's house...but daniel just left. and this time, it won't just be a proclamation to bethany's greatness...because....daniel has one already.

renel has no idea what to write. that's why i'm going to keep writng for him.

so, we did this spanish project today after school. (as in renel, daniel and me) And i's super cool....we totally filmed outside of carls jr and inside vons...which is probelby illegal! yay, now we can go to jail and be supercool. btw-bethany is cool.

spanish is fun and exciting!

And the winner is......

Sun, 16 May 2004 00:44:34 GMT

ok everybody you voted and you winner is now posted as the background on mad_kirby.</span> This contest will be held about once a month, or when ever i get bored. i'm hope you all enjoyed this, and please give me ideas on what you would like to see in the next contest, i will try and put them into the running. lol.

This update of mad_kirby is brought to you by diane inc. Diane, takign over lj, one journal at a time.

ATTENTION EVERYBODY!!!

Mon, 10 May 2004 03:29:29 GMT

he he he...i wonder when renel will update his own lj. because he never does. and i'm the only one who ever will...ooo Harry Potter is on...btw i changed the background here again. geee i think ashie is right abotu me and backgrounds...i'm going to find an embarassing pic of renel for next time i play with his lj.

lol. diane inc. has struck again!!! i'm serious this lj is now officialy part of diane inc. because apparantly he could care less what happens to hus lj. so i'm hold a contest, please people i'm posting some pix, vote for the one you want renel's next bg to be!!!!

thank you very much, look for the winner sometime next week.

it's not renel

Fri, 07 May 2004 03:12:56 GMT

what else is new? lol, i got bored i'm going to change this layout soon, and i stole this pic from jenjen heh heh heh. mad_kirby ya, renel is taking a nap right now, he doesn't feel good, and with all those AP tests who could blame him? how do you all get through em? i couldn't if my life depended on it...and next year i will ba taking like one or two of em...that makes me sad...but not as sad as this 2 hours series finale of FRIENDS is making me.

well i'm gonna go and give renel back his lj...not that he ever uses it...maybe i should just claim it as a subordinate of my own...it's now part of x_fallen_angel inc. heh heh heh.

<3,
diane

Sat, 24 Apr 2004 04:06:27 GMT

mad_kirby check out the new layout

you're going to be sorry

Sat, 24 Apr 2004 04:01:29 GMT

look at this renel is updating...not really, it's diane...he wants me to update this thing for him, so i am...and he's goign to be sorry. bwhahaha!!!! password being changed...this is officialy mine!!!!! bwhahaha!!!!! lol, nah i'm just going to do somehting completely evil and horrible bwhahaha!!!! i'm sooooo chanign the background...i know how about my background, ooo perfectness!!!! hahahaha!!!! sorry renel, but you asked for this!!!!

O.K. fine...

Sun, 04 Apr 2004 06:32:26 GMT

There i updated...happy?

Again...>_

Mon, 29 Mar 2004 11:30:00 GMT

well it looks like im doing it again...its 3:16 in the morning and i havent started my homework...wat have i done to slack off so badly this past month? i think im in the road to failure unless i somehow get motivated to try my best in school...i sometimes think life is futile...hopeless to live in...i wonder wat i would be doing right now if i still lived in the philippines...to tell the truth, im probably sleeping...not slacking off...i was a slacker back then too...but i was still a kid...not really knowing wats best for me. The only thing ill prolly regret is all of the friends i made over here...i didnt really have that much good friends in the Philippines...its usually acquaintances and interactions with classmates in school...come to think of it, i only had anne clarise who is a girl that is my best friend...and perhaps 1 or 2 guy friends that im pretty good friends with but i cant somehow remember their names...i think its eugene and jon carlo...but yeah my cousins made up for my few friends though...heh..i remember my cousin, Ate Astrid, doing my hw for me...well once, after that, i tried and stuff...ive always had fun in mind back then, but somehow i was able to do my hw first before anything...and now, its the complete opposite...gah...i must find thy true self...maybe after i learn how to meditate, and find inner peace, i might be able to find Self. (read the book Siddhartha, its an awesome book...makes me want to change my religion to Buddhism and such) Anyways, im off...its 3:30...im prolly gonna sleep at 5, or no sleep at all...later :|

-=Chi-Chi=-

Finally...without my comp freezing this time...

Sat, 27 Mar 2004 19:57:32 GMT

ok...this would be the 5th time i tried to update my journal...if it freezes again, oh well...its amazing actually...i havent been pissed that after i write the thing ive been meaning to write (which is pretty long), then my comp suddenly decides...hmmmm lets freeze up so Renel has to do this over and over again...and when it does that, i might feel a lil disappointed that i have to do it over again, but amazingly not mad because of it. Anyways, let me get to the point, here is wat i had in mind last night, even more so right now:

at times, i wonder why some people look up to me, when its usually me who looks up to them. Im not that great of a person u know, i might be smart sometimes, but lately, ive been doing stupid things which is reflecting upon my grades...im not that great with advice either...well i might be able to make something up, but thats usually when i think about it over time, or its a topic that relates to me easily. Dont ask too much of me. I can promise alot of things, but know that i wont be able to fulfill them all the time. Anyways, im gonna focus on school more. Maybe till school ends, maybe till the end of my senior year. If i seem unfriendly or sort of ignoring sometimes, ull know the reason why. Someone asked me who is the real me, how i see my self as...im still trying to look for him and i dont know him pretty much myself. Well let me rephrase that, i might know who is the real me, and i can actually see myself, but idk how to explain it. I think its better to either ask my best friend Tim, or my sister, Kayla, about it cause they're the ones who knows me best and for the longest, the ones i tell most, if not all of my secrets and thoughts. Well im gonna go...gonna cook some breaded shrip for lunch...cant wait to let my sis try them...they're so good...anyways, yeah...till the next update or something.

PS: me and my friend, Steven, has been working on this forum, improving upon the one i had. Last night, we finished it and yeah, we want some members, if not just some ppl to check it out: <(><)>'s Forum... if ur planning to become a member, or to join and post some stuff, just remember to read the rules first...me and Steven dont really want our forum to be closed down.

OMG! HI TO YOU TOO!!!

Fri, 26 Mar 2004 07:56:35 GMT

Lol...idk...im just being crazy right now...it might be cause of the 4 cups of coffee i just drank and the can of pepsi im drinking right now...anyways, here's a pic of faye valentine from cowboy beebop ....argh cant find a good pic...ill just torture u guys later ^_^ mwuahahahahaha...wait...nvm...here i found one...ok remember the image of this pic ok?

now...check this site and be prepared...to be blinded ^_^...ahhhhhhhhh OMG...my eyes!!! They burn like the sun...if u got the guts, click on the link...i dare u...mwuahahahaha...i like to move it move it...i like to move it move it...i like to...move it...and no if ur wondering y i have that song stuck to my head, its cause of TeH MaN FaYe...ahhhhhhh my brain hurts from thinking about that name...oh yeah the link, here it is: Faye Valentine...lol...click under uhhh...i forgot the saying but oh well...hmmm...NOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooo...i think i drank too much coffee and liquid for tonight >_<...OOOHHH...my guitar...*plays 1/4 of "Tears In Heaven"* ^_^...i can play it without looking...woo hoo...after i memorize how to play this one part, i can play the whole song...and yeah im trying to learn how to play More Than Words and Now And Forever...the guitar in those are so awesome...well also Pare Ko...i think i can sing the whole song...maybe ill do something in my senior year bout it...maybe the senior faculty show...if its still gonna be around...or maybe in graduation day...thanks Lynn for suggesting something like that...and now im just wasting a bunch of time instead of finishing my last 2 bbj topics, 2 book reviews, a dbq essay, chapter 28-30 reviews for history, and studying for a math quiz im having for tomorrow...oh joy...sounds so much fun...i might actually read the whole 60 pages of history text book for the test tomorrow...hmmm...i better go...gonna take a nice, soothing shower then back to hw...have fun sleeping you early sleeping people...as for me, ill be of course, doing hw and puting my act together for Diane ^_^...gah...so much things to do...

Eh...

Fri, 26 Mar 2004 01:12:22 GMT

idk...im just bored...need a break from school work...so yeah i decided to do this thing everybody's been posting and here is my result:

Your Stripper Info by radioface
first name
age
Stripper Name:	Chi-chi
Specialty:	pole-grinding
Customers say:	"Can i pretend yer my gf?"

Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!

very interesting...anyways, the lightbulb above my head lit up...i decided on something...just trying to see how to put action on it though...when i do, u guys will see it...

Wondering...

Wed, 24 Mar 2004 05:52:47 GMT

I've been thinking about a lot of things lately...still wondering what happend to me this past few months...wondering how i changed...i feel like i wanna tell my whole life story...even though i know it would be a bore...but still, at least others can see what im going through, my deepest thoughts, my darkest secrets...once i get the motivation, and once i finally have the time and not be busy with school, i might write about it. As for now, I'll prolly go outside...in the cool night air...contemplating on my thoughts again...

¿New Icon?

Mon, 22 Mar 2004 03:59:03 GMT

hmmm...im thinking of changing one of my icons into one where im smiling and uhhh shirtless...so yeah im wondering if i should change the mad looking one of me, or the cartoon one of one of my fav characters from this anime i like (Lukawa)...or should i just keep wat i have right now...hmmm yeah...need opinions...oh and yeah..nothing significant happend today...i just got done looking at the stars with my telescope...well i didnt have that good of a luck in it...it was out of focus so instead, i looked at street lights x)...and made a wish upon it...

I kicked ass!!!

Sun, 21 Mar 2004 06:00:27 GMT

Oh damn...Princeton and Kevin was over today...showed them how to play TFC, then i kicked their ass in Super Smash Bros with my YeLLoW KiRbY...well i won most of the games anyways...then yeah just hanged out and try to do all the special ending moves in Killer Instinct...then watched a lil bit of tv...later though, we played some guitar...well i sort of did...Kevin showed my sis how a guitar is really played >_<...lol but its all cool...pizza was good...just relaxing thinking bout nothing but fun x)...lol we were "suppose" to work on our bbj...well sort of...we only got in the topic of asking each other: "should we work on our bbj? do u guys wanna?" and we looked at each other and said: "Nah"...lol and my dog was getting a lil too friendly to Princeton O_o...anyways, thats wat happend today...i think im gonna go and watch a bunch of movies with my sis...

I can't decide...

Fri, 19 Mar 2004 06:18:35 GMT

Okey...im trying to decide whether i should be too open about wat im thinking, my opinions, or just wats been in my mind lately...but if do become too blunt about it, im just afraid that ill prolly either hurt someone, or prolly make the atmosphere around me weird...i need some opinions u guys...wanna see the real me (my thoughts and opinions)?, or is everything good the way they are now?

LMAO

Fri, 19 Mar 2004 05:35:53 GMT

idk...this just amuses me...

Estne volumen in toga, an solum tibi libet me
videre?
"Is that a scroll in your toga, or are you
just glad to see me?"
You're smooth, okay, but you also need a
girlfriend. Bad.

Which Weird Latin Phrase Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

Woo hoo!!!

Thu, 18 Mar 2004 09:26:47 GMT

Yay! I'm so happy...thanks to my community, i was able to translate the lyrics of "Pare Ko" from Tagalog to English...now, all you ppl who has been asking me wat the hell im singing can finally understand wat it is...oh yeah...i just got a new icon ^_^...lol it doesnt look too happy though O_O...hmmm anywho, yeah...ill go off now and start on the bbj for talbot's class >_<...later guys.

Wed, 17 Mar 2004 00:43:17 GMT

wow...i was just browsing around in my community and i checked this one girl's LJ...and this is wat she wrote: "everything lately has been about perspective. it bothers me that people choose to be ashamed for the sake of being "appropriate". fuck that. you need to be yourself, do what YOU want to do, and not be afraid to do so. who are you living for? the happiness of others or yours? people should accept you for who you are and what you do. if they can't, that's THEIR problem, not yours. i'm sick of having to watch what i say, be wary of what i do because i may offend others. and i'm even more sick of people tip-toeing around me doing the same thing because they're afraid to be themselves. because they're dismayed at the consequences of honesty. what kind of bullshit is that? this is the reason why i like to keep to myself most of the time... because all i get is frustration building up as i get sucked into this bubble of more and more pretense. you think in the end it'll be worth it, that both parties will benefit. that it's just another means of compromise. but then you realize that compromising only cheapens you and you wonder what the real value was in it. how is it gratifying? because you gain love? acceptance? friendship? recognition? and even if you did, you wouldn't question your own worth if you achieved it through pretentiousness? ugh, i'm being the ultimate cynic today... it's me, myself and i. and everything on the outside (especially people) are deserving of my skepticism.

all is fair in love and war? it's all about from who's perspective."

Anyways, yeah...that's wats been on my mind lately...just didnt know how to say it out...hmmm yeah...gonna go and walk the dog with my sis now...later <(><)>